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so our little drama queen had her pics taken again today, she through her hand on her head like Scarlett in gone with the wind as if she seemed tired of all the paparazzi pics. Funny. Here is one from today.

little girl looks like her mommy.

So Friday was the most fun I think we have had all summer. Early in the morning we had one of our many ultra sounds(in case it seems like we are always having ultra sounds we are, Amber is considered high risk I will explain some time). During the ultra sound we were able to see our babies hair. She looks like she has a ton of it. She wasn’t being very cooperative with the tech and wouldn’t let her take many pictures so we didn’t get any good ones. But she is weighing in at around 5 pounds so at this rate we figure she will be really close to 7 pounds when she is born, maybe a tad more. Then we had our fetal monitoring and that’s were the fun began. When the tech walked in she asked Amber is Charlie is very active, she replied “yes”. Then the tech explained what the monitoring is all about, and how if your baby doesn’t move during the test that means she is sick and blah blah blah. We’ll Amber’s face turned white and then they took her blood pressure and it was off the charts. Amber mentioned she is nervous and that would explain the spike. They took it again later and she was fine so no worries. After that we had a great breakfeast and I surprised Amber by having the day set up so we could be off and go to the zoo. It was a blast and I can’t wait to take Charlie. I will post pic’s , but anyway the day’s are getting shorter and so is our time before she is here. Not much longer and we can’t wait.

Unknowingly I have been working at the same job for 12 years as a paid employee. And 18 years just working with the folks. Sometimes I start to think what am I doing here and what is the goal for my family. Success isn’t always being rich or famous or even popular. I would like to consider myself as working toward success not successful. I have friends and even family members who as we speak are looking for work or have a job just to get by. I am not one of those people and I have been very blessed for that. With that said, I would love to make some sort of difference in this world. I like to create things and love to build from scratch and even enjoy re-designing plans or day to day operations to get the maximum I can out of something. Working in a family business has given me that opportunity to do that and provide for my family. For 5 years my wife and I ran a very quality children’s ministry at our last church and that seemed to fill the void for our creative outlet. Now with that changed and our focus on something else it seems to be a back log. A steady stream was flowing for quit some time and now I feel like a boxer who has been knocked down and is at a standing eight count. One thing that never goes well with family business is the main aspect of it FAMILY. There is a reason why most family business don’t make it to the third generation. Either fighting, finacial, or some act of distruction, it just imploads. Goes up in smoke and leaves nothing in it’s wake. When I was young I dreamed of having a place of work I was happy with. A place I could build and make even greater then the generations before have, not to discredit them or say what they did was wrong but to build on their success and carve out my own. To have a place I could hire friends and family and work under one roof. Take care of them like I was taken care of and help them lead a fruitful life. Now that I am older and have experienced the ups and down’s of business life I am beginning to question, did I loose track of my dream or did it pass me by. To be in limbo in business is not a good thing. To be steady in business is not a good thing, because without growth you have stagnet water. What happens to stagnet water? The mosquitos and flies and animals come and suck it dry. Eventually it’s all gone. To have success you have to bread success. You have to keep a good outlook, a positive outlook. One that says when I am down I will not stay down. When I am up I will not get lazy and just be. I often wonder what will be in the future. When Charlie is five or six or seven or eighteen. Will I have a safe haven for her. I guess what I am saying is when you have a dream, hold on to it. Don’t let government or wallstreet or even family dirupt what you have set in your life. Waiting isn’t a bad thing but wait to long and sometimes that dream may pass you by.  I almost let mine pass me by. It’s not about roots but where you are planted.

found this quote and thought it came in handy.

Do not wait for leaders; do it alone, person to person. 
Mother Teresa 

With today’s environment sometimes it pays to just do it yourself.

Ok, so I added a twitter feed to my website it’s on my home page www.innmybrain.com I also tried to add it to the side bar but it doesn’t seem to be working, I’m going to play with it more, but with so much crazy stuff going in I will try to post as much info as possible.

OK so we just passed the 33 week mark, and times are starting to get a little crazy. We packed our bags last night so we can be prepared when the water breaks. It is becoming surreal and a little scary.  I have to admit that sometimes I feel totally prepared for father-hood, then other times I am totally scared and can’t believe what’s going on. I would say about 85% of our time right now is talking about in some way shape or form baby Charlie, and she deserves every second of it. She has been extremely active and keeps us both up all night long. I do realize it’s all preparation and getting us in the mode to accept that a full nights sleep will not be possible.  She makes us laugh and giggle and sometimes even makes Amber hurt a little. She kicks and punches and stretches and the other day I felt her head because she was stretching out so far. It is truly amazing. And buying baby clothes and accessories is my new favorite past time. This week we have another doc appointment  and are really excited.

Ever wonder what the future holds. Well often times I don’t, but just can’t wait for this little girl to come. So I put something together to hold me over for a few minutes. Nothing special just a little comic strip. Enjoy!!!